I have low self-esteem Experience in serving domestically and occasional forays into findom Fall... View more> I have low self-esteem> Experience in serving domestically and occasional forays into findom> Falling> Weak> Self-Perception has always been of a cute & service-helpful sub but now realizing I've suddenly become wimpy-old, ever-soft and entirely forgettable> Going back and forth between thinking I'm a good, kind-hearted person and someone who is filled with the lowest self-loathing -- a real shit-stain > This is a sickness. I don't even 'get off' on this (usually) anymore. It's just something I do because it feels so natural.> Two weeks ago, I experienced 'Spontaneous Ejaculation' - there was no arousal at all and I was not erect. Very strange and quite pathetic. Had to look it up; apparently it is a thing (albeit rare)> I like to be tucked into my panty-gusset when I send --- but who cares what I like, right?
