: I identify as a dominant cisgendered white female. But I am not only a dominant woman- I am an imm... View more: I identify as a dominant cisgendered white female. But I am not only a dominant woman- I am an immigrant, a huge sci/fi fantasy nerd- and a loving wife. I am happily married to a vanilla man and active in my Jewish community. BDSM is just one aspect of my whole self, it is not the only part of me.
I've been active in BDSM since high-school with various breaks trying to hope that vanilla relationships would cure me of the kink. Spoiler alert: they didn't.
I have found (mostly) an acceptance and enjoyment of my kinky self. It still takes a lot of trust for me to show that part of myself to someone, so most likely you won't find me doing pickup play. Since so much of kink is mental for me, I feel like I don't have the same experience if I don't connect intellectually with someone. Also, my partner is actively aware of my activities, so I am not interested in someone whose partner isn't.
BDSM for me is less about the equipment and individual fetishes and more about getting inside someone's head. There is nothing like the feeling of someone melting when you whisper to them about how you plan to use them.To me kink is about how it feels to create shared space together. I love the electric feeling I get when someone submits to me. I hit top space hard.
I enjoy physical, financial and sexual aspects of control. Ultimately, I am looking to take ownership of one servant for the long haul. In the meantime, I am tentatively open to meeting new play partners. FYI: I don't engage in body worship or pegging.
