Forced Intox, what do you like/hate about it?

I used to indulge in this a lot, and enjoyed it. I had to stop as I'm an alcoholic and quit over a year ago, but I do miss it. I used to love the loss of control, the evilness of having that weakness exploited, doing long sessions, feeling so vulnerable. In some twisted way I enjoyed that the domme was damaging my health, and I also sexualised the regret and shame the next day (what can I say, I'm a bit fucked up).

I still in indulge in lots of play and overall I'm happier both in kink and vanilla life being sober, but I do look back on intox play with some nostalgia.