Revving My Engine

Satisfying a desire evokes a slightly different physical and emotional response for each person. I often receive detailed messages from submissives, outlining how a particular fetish makes them feel. It most cases, the sensations from submissives I have been in contact with involve a sexual component.

My own desires and feelings of fulfillment are quite different. Satisfying my kink gives me an endorphin and dopamine kick that does not involve my genitalia.

The sensation starts at my ears and base of my skull, to travel to the pit of my stomach. This desire involves taking control of a willing submissive and receiving true power in the form of a tribute. To date, control has usually involved tease, denial, release or chastity. Personally, it makes no difference where I ‘unleash’. The act of taking charge itself, provides the thrill and that sweet feeling of completion.

Many have asked me about my ‘sexual fantasies’. Sure, I do occasionally enter a state of arousal. I engage in sex acts with alpha males only. I still dominate and when I’m done, I want nothing more to do with them (no point when there will be a personality clash). That means, there is no fantasy for me when it comes to sex. It is only the fulfillment of a biological drive.

So, you see; looking at, touching, owning, punishing or locking away a set of cock and balls means nothing to me. It is taking the power and exerting influence that has me mentally ‘wet’.