Where did my fetish come from?...

So, the other day, I began to think to myself, "How the heck did I get here?! Where did it all begin, and is there an end?!" 'Here', of course, referring to FinDom. As everyone knows, each persons tick and fetish is different. Although it might fall under the same category, it can branch off into another direction, which is where I think I have gone. I don't feel like I fall under the umbrella that this fetish has come to create, so I thought I would create this blog of me and my fetish, to help everyone understand me a little better, and realize that although I may be "different", I mean no disrespect, or anything else that may be construed with it.
I started to rack my brain to think of where it all started from, and how it crept its way into my fetish life! Because as far as I knew, I enjoyed feet, and sometimes even hands! The shiny polish of the nail, just hitting my eye right, and catching my attention...taking me into La-La-Land. It truly did feel like a hypnotic trance to me at times. I would go into this "stupid" state of mind, where if the female was to ask me something, I would bend over backwards to do it for her! But, it was never anything financial of course, at least not yet!

My foot fetish, and hand fetish evolved into being seduced by her and her shiny toes...then even glossy lipstick/wet-look tights or leggings began to grab my attention....being manipulated by her seduction into doing what she says...almost like being controlled under "hypnosis" (which is where that came from). And then, it turned into being told to give money, while in this "hypnotic" state of mind. Not really having any say in it, besides knowing that pleasure was rushing throughout my body, and I would do anything to keep it going! Money, shopping, homework, etc...you name it, I began to fall prey! The more hypnotic she is, the more I give, the more enjoyable the session, because all of my senses or her seduction on me is working. No longer able to think clearly, but be lead by her guidance, training me and conditioning me.

For me, this all came as a surprise...
In real life, I am an Alpha male. Military, guns, active lifestyle, fast cars, money, handsome, high self-esteem, great jobs/opportunities, confident, well spoken, and women hitting me up all the time. I hate stuck up people, and will always go out of my way to bring them down, just to show that I can, and that I will do anything and everything better than them.
But, it just felt good to once in a while indulge myself in the fetish of being seduced by a woman, and being taken over. And so it began. Little by little, I would go deeper. A little further. A little more. A little harder.
For a while, I would tell myself "Maybe I'm just a switch?" But no, it became evident that I am not a switch. Yes, I am an Alpha, and not always submissive/willing to give in to stuck up people who feel they rightfully deserve it all...but, I do not control anyone in my everyday life. I am an Alpha, but I do not get off on being on top in the fetish aspect. Once my fetish switch gets turned on though, I am pure and simple, a submissive pet, waiting to be captured and entrapped.

So, maybe this can also help you understand why if you come at me a certain way, I am not as responsive, as if you would come at me in a seductive way. Because right off the bat, I will give you a hard time, and most likely we will not get along, if we start off butting heads...lol.

Well, I kinda started to notice I am going off on a rant, so I will end it "short", but if you have any questions or anything, feel free to message me! I know this is a lot to read, but I hope you understand where I am coming from, and we can get along better, seeing as how not everyone is the same, and that I outlined my approach. :)