Learning My Place As A Beta Male

I have always had submissive feelings towards women for as long as I can remember. In my early 20, I learned about the world of Femdom. It was an amazing experience to see all kinds of men submit to powerful women. I knew that was what I wanted to do. I wanted to find a strong independent alpha female to devote my life to. The town I had moved to for college didn’t have a big kink community, so I took to online to learn about that world. That is what lead me to the world of Findom. It was very different from what I had wanted to do.

I was service orientated, simply giving away the few dollars that I had as a college student wasn’t that appealing. Never the less I wanted to serve and thought this was my only way. I quickly met a findomme, who in hindsight was probably just saw findom as a job and not a lifestyle. She was very demanding and degrading. At that point in my life, I did not think much of myself so I accepted her abuse as what I deserved. She demanded large sums of money from me, not caring at all for my well-being. As she put it my only worth was giving her my money. No matter how much I gave her it was never enough she would then degrade me for not having more to give her. She ordered me to take out lines of credit and give her the money. After I did that she was gone, I was worthless to her now since I had less than nothing left to give her.

After picking myself up and dusting myself off after that experience I decided that femdom was not for me. I did not see myself as worthless therefore I could not be a sub. Life went on I started a never-ending path of self-improvement. I even tried domming for a while, but my submissive feelings never really went away.

Now out in the vanilla world, I did what I thought was expected of me as a man. I  went out to try and meet women who have sex, typical things. I never felt satisfied though something was missing in my life. I would keep going back and forth from having submissive impulses towards strong women and thinking that I needed to be the alpha.

After a lot of soul searching, I realized that I am a beta male my purpose is to serve strong alpha women. Being a beta doesn’t make me less of a man or worthless. If a beta served no purpose then why would women keep them around? I feel that a lot of men go through life trying to be alpha when they are beta and would be much happier accepting that. That sort of conflict causes a lot of problems in the world.

Coming to this conclusion I realized that if my place is to serve women, I can’t be pursuing women. Meaning I couldn’t be going out and trying to sleep with women that are not my role. All my interactions with women cannot be through the lens of she is hot I want to fuck her. They have to be how can I assist her. To do that I had to give up my biological desire for pussy and live a chaste life. My purpose and place are serving women and doing what they desire, not what will get me off. I voluntarily started wearing a chastity device to help me become pussy free. I know that the female body is not for me to leer at. When I interact with women in real life I make sure I only look them in the eyes. I do not try to look at their boobs or sneak a glance at their ass. As a beta that is not for me and having a chastity device on getting aroused is not a pleasurable experience. Being chaste is hard but I know that my motivations when interacting with women will be what is best for them and not what will get me off.

I see far too many “subs” trying to work women into doing what makes their dick hard instead of what she wants. There is nothing wrong with being beta and accepting your place. We have to make sure we are serving women and not the other way around.