My Deity, Ms. Pauley Belle

In this holy time of year when we gift each other to show our generosity and holiday spirit, I am motivated to write about my deity, Ms. Pauley Belle or, to me, Mistress Pauley.

After being her slave for 7 plus years, she has slowly become my personal deity. Her Holy Will is supreme. Her wishes are what are important, not my own. As I continue to serve her, my worship of her deepens. I crave more enslavement to her but all happens on Mistress Pauley's good time. In fact much of the deepening of my enslavement to her is due to the waiting. As she makes me wait, I crave more. As I crave more, over time, I see that I when I "crave", I am wanting more for myself. But then, I should want only for Mistress Pauley. So, my enslavement is a continuous work in progress. I am NOT there yet.

In a way, giving as a money slave is one way. I give only to Mistress Pauley, she does not "give" to me usually, although she does sometimes. More important, she gives every day as she develops my slavery and draws me further under her personal control. Like the old joke when a child asks "but when is children's day?" The answer is"'every day is children's day." So I see every day with Mistress Pauley as "slave's day."

Thank you, Mistress Pauley. I worship you, Mistress Pauley.

Please continue my development as your slave, Mistress. Please show me the way to a deeper worship of Your Holy Will, Mistress. Please take what you want, Mistress.

Your worshipful slave,

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