My first experience

This is my first blog! (Only been here for9 months haha!)any way, this is just a random muttering about myself and why i enjoy findom. I first dicovered findom after exploring femdom for a few years. Femdom was fun but it lacked something 'real' after a online session id always feel like "is this it?" appart from real life sessions where the kick was much greater. I came accross findom and thought fuck it maybe thats what im missing. The first time i ordered some one to purchase something for me actually felt really strange. Probably because i am such an independant person i never directly asked for a gift from some one i didnt know before! Anyway.. I wanted a watch, nothing too fancy but still around the £100 mark. I then pursued to ask for more tributes and the sub was just handing them to me like a zombie. Completely absorbed in my words he didnt hesitate, he just complied. Now - thats what i thought it was all about but then more and more subs approached me almost demanding me to spend my valuable time on them, speaking to me with no incling of respect and focusing on that deep craving of their loins.. I got fussy with my subs pretty quick. If the first message wasnt polite and respectful i wouldnt even reply. I may not get as many tributes this way but any submissive who approaches me rudely i dont want to work with and no amount of money would change my mind.

Anyway. Back to my first experience.. It almost felt surreal, some random man double my age buying me gifts and really enjoying it! As soon as the watch arrived at my house the reality sunk in that it has actually happened! So i took a photo of the watch in the box and another few photos of it on and sent them to the submissive who purchased it for me, he was ecstatic that i liked it and continued to ask me what i wanted next..

It wasnt the item that i enjoyed as much as it was the control. The power rush was like no other i had felt, it was as if i felt like a bigger stronger person. Making big bucks would be nice but for me this is all about control. Its about winning. Whether thats taking some ones last £10 or a sub paying me 20% of his wages every week.

Thats all for now!