Who I am, and what I want. Late night ramblings from a growing noob

Okay Ive been on findoms for a month!! yay go me lol. I have met some amazeballz people who have been extremely kind, have shared tons, and made me feel extremely welcome. I love this community.:-)
So who I am... Goddess Blaize... 48 yo BBW Domme, Healer, Listener, sensual, seductive, pink loving, glitter throwing, curvy, fun having DOMME. Yep all those things, and still a Domme, and thats okay. Im not in it for drive bys and money. DO NOT get me wrong, I love money, but I don't NEED it. As one subby told me "its hot because you could literally wipe your ass with my money, and it wouldn't matter." too true little boy, too true.
Im not a sadist so findom appeals to me on many levels, a way to get what I want without getting my hands dirty, a way to dominate weak men, and I can do it sweetly, or salty, either way you will savor my flavor, as its different. Some call it sensual Dome, empathetic Domme, fake Domme, I don't care what you call it, it works for me, and those who are drawn to me. I was a little worried when I joined initially, being new and nice? surely that would be the kiss of death with subs and Dommes alike. NOPE! I have had amazing support, and already met some boys who are interested in my style. Im a bit of a mamaDomme, ill do it for your own good, and mine as well. I want subs for the long haul, so its in my best interest to cultivate the kind of sub/slave I want to serve me. I take my time, chat (I love chatting), make you work a bit for that first tribute. So if you want to tribute and run, we would probably not be a good match. I need to know the sub at least a little bit, and know the submission is organic. It doesn't have to be big, just real and consistent. I need to know your circumstances, financially and otherwise before I get into a position to take your money. Im not interested in a sub who is running his cc up to max in the first 6 months he's here as he will be useless to myself, and the community while he pays it off. So if your looking to splash money around like that, again not for me, thats akin to jerking off on me and ill pass.
Im a healer in vanilla life, 20+ years in healthcare. my nature is to fix the broken and comfort those who can't be fixed. Ive seen so much ugly that humans do to each other, its beyond mind numbing. That's why no sadism here, it doesn't turn me on, so nope.. That being said I do enjoy teasing sassy boys, teaching them how to behave so that someday they may have hope of keeping a dominant gf/wife less miserable in life. Teach them how to control the pathetic little cocklette that looks like a dead baby bird in their lap. Ive been married to a cockless wonder for 17 years, it will take more than a wimpy baby dick and fat wallet to impress me. Make me laugh, be genuine, keep me company on a slow long night shift, surprise me with something from my gift list, I react like pavlovs dogs to the UPS truck lol. You have to be financially responsible, WE WILL go over your budget and figure out what you will give to me weekly, and discuss other tribute opportunities, punishments etc will come into play over time. Saying "I'm your slave take everything you want" doesn't work for me. There are many whom it does, so keep trucking there is a lid for every pot.
I'm a bit of a cougar, I'm attracted to alpha cubs for sexual pleasure, and enjoy training you lil betas to be better servants, and individuals. we can work on weight loss, financial responsibility, smoking, chastity etc. If you come to me broke after blowing your CC load the first few months here, you better come with a plan, a budget, a minimum weekly tribute amount, and a serious desire to serve. you will be expected to perform tasks, as well as other things we can go over privately. I will not accept every busted loser who comes my way, this is not a sure thing. BUT it is who I am. So just because you screwed up and blew it at first, doesn't mean you can't maintain your rep as a good boy, if you truly are.
Wow Im still rambling... I am also looking for an experienced loyal sissy cuck to work with, its an area I don't have experience in, and would like to explore. Lets chat make up, hair, cute boys, how to give the best BJs, and the best ways to bottom. UK boys are welcome to msg, with my work hours Im up late most nights. I have experience with cuck realtime with my hubs, but not much sissy experience.
sooooo thats where I am at, feeling more confident in my place in this community, finding my groove, and actively seeking subs to build a loyal stable, to entertain myself when I need a break from the ugly. You have my permission to inbox me if something strikes you and you would like to chat.