At first, I "came and went" with Ms. Pauley Belle. Then, she taught me to commit to a period of time starting with months. That developed into a year long commitment reinforced by a Slave Contract. Now, it is a two year Slave Contract. As part of that contract, I committed to weekly Gift Day, Wednesday and weekly Tribute Day, Sunday. Now, today is Sunday and I just sent Mistress Pauley her weekly tribute. Like many subs, I am all over sending to Mistress Pauley when I am in the mood, that ...

After 7 plus years, I find myself being more enslaved to Mistress Pauley. I need to give more, express my submissiveness to her more and, in general, surrender my will more to her domination and control. This comes from committing to continuous slavery with a Slave Contract, rather han coming and going. The idea is to serve Mistress Pauley always even if I am "not in the mood." In doing so, I become more submissive and eager to please her. Mistress does as she pleases. She is there for me whe...

Ms. Pauley Belle has not let me release in 18 months. But, before that, it was 17 months. And, now she has me on 6 more months to make 24 months. I am so horny! I NEED to please Mistress Pauley! I started out today with some gifts from her Wish List. After sending those, I KNEW they were not enough. I need to send more. Maybe I will take a look at her non-Amazon Wish Lists. She always has nice gifts for herself on there. Or maybe a tribute? What to do, what to do! Thank you, Mistress Paule...

Wow, another anniversary! On March 15, I beat my previous record of 17 months on Mistress Pauley's Orgasm Denial Program. I now have 18 months of continuous Orgasm Denial. As part of her program, Mistress lets me release for medical situations, which I did twice. Otherwise, I have gone without for 18 months. That was a commitment to beat my previous record of 17 months. Now, what is next? The Orgasm Denial Program remains in effect. Reaching 18 months of going without does not end my time on ...

I should contact Ms. Pauley Belle every day but I am ashamed to say I do not. So I developed language in my slave contract to make sure I do that. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Slave will contact Mistress daily through email or chat. Tributes, gifts, blog posts and the like do not count but covering emails will. ...

My new 2 year Slave Contract is below. Changes from past years are: 1) Due to the stock market drop, slave's spending on Mistress Pauley has been reduced. The body of the contract was not changed but the new spending is described in Additions 1 and 2. 2) Orgasm Denial has been loosened so slave may infrequently ask Mistress Pauley for release. This is due to medical issues. ...

My obligation to go without release for 18 months has reached the 2 month mark. My Orgasm Denial thank you gifts to Mistress Pauley for November are the Black Leather Tote Bag and the Dark Chocolate Ginger. The symbolism is my sacricfie to buy Mistress Pauley handbags which for some reason excites me. It is my way of both pleasing Mistress Pauley and, at the same time, thanking her for letting me buy her handbags. The dark chocolate is symbolic of my need to please Mistress Pauley with treats. ...

I am committed to write one general blog each month detailing how my submission to Mistress Pauley is going. Right now, I am WAY BEHIND. Currently, I seem to be moving away from over concern about my spending and towards giving freely to Mistress Pauley. Her desires and priorities are becoming mine. Part of that is the stock market and how it affects my retirement funds. The market is way up and generates new cash every month for Mistress Pauley's pleasure. The other part is that I have been...

October 15, 2019 marked one month of Mistress Pauley's Orgasm Denial Program. This is after two restarts where I had 17 and 15 months of Orgasm Denial. As stated elsewhere, I have a commitment to Mistress Pauley to go without release for 18 full months...continuously with no "release breaks." So I am disappointed that I do not have about 3 years of Orgasm Denial to offer her. And yet, the long term Orgasm Denial seems to be working. I am more submissive, more worshipful, more compliant as tim...

I have been on Mistress Pauley's Orgasm Denial Program for about 3 years now. But, I have not been without release as I was allowed to release twice for medical purposes. In hind sight, the medical issues were not related, so I did not have to release. That is in hind sight, too late to correct. I have 17 months without release and then 15 months. Now, I have 2 months. My previous blog, Orgasm Denial - The Future covers this. I was going to come up with a Grand Plan for Orgasm Denial but that...

Today, September 8, marks 5 years of service to Ms Pauley Belle. It started with a short PM to her here in findoms. As I typed, it got longer and I found myself saying that this was a long message for me as I started out to just say I could not serve anybody at the time as I was spending too much. And 5 years later, here we are. Mistress Pauley is very good at working with us submissive little boys who have trouble controlling their spending. She limited my opportunities to spend until I could g...