Thoughts on being a community slave

I have been thinking recently about my experiences on this site. I suppose I would be considered a "community slave" in that I have given cash to a number of ladies on this site, some local, and some in different parts of the world. Some in person for cash meets, but also often via the usual online methods. Whilst it would be incredible to devote myself to a local Mistress, and no one else, I have enjoyed this experience. It has been exciting in its own right, rather than just being a stop gap.

What I have found is that when I am in the chatroom, occasionally a lady might see Im there as a slave, and make an unsolicited request for payment, in the chat, in front of everyone present. Often, Ive barely talked to her previously. I bet most people reading this, are going to think Im complaining about this. Well, the truth is Im not. Quite the opposite. I know many in this community, would disapprove of dommes doing this, but I don't. Not at all. In my opinion, on this site, any lady has the right to request payments from slaves like me. I have the right to decline ofcourse, but she absolutely has the right to ask me, right off the bat, without any previous contact, if she sees fit, its a findom site after all.

Ofcourse, its impossible, (sadly) for me to say 'yes' to all requests for payment, from every lady who asks. I wish it was different, but this is a fetish that a slave simply has to maintain some degree of self control over. I often have to politely decline, but sometimes, when a lady suggests I make a tribute to her, in the chatroom in front of everyone, I find myself typing back - "Yes Goddess, is circle ok?" I do this, because her sheer entitlement and audacity has excited me. It might be something about they way she worded it, or it could be the humiliation factor that she has asked me to get my wallet out for her, in the room, in front of all the other ladies and fellow losers, and I have felt so weak, I have agreed, and everyone has just seen me get blatantly used and abused, by a stranger.

Well, I say each to their own. It might not be for everyone, but I enjoy being used and abused by women, whoever they are. I try to make, being of service to women generally a part of my everyday life, in little ways. I only wish my bank account allowed me to say, "Yes Goddess, is Circle ok?" everytime.