Look into my world.

I have been a member on the site, off and on, for a few years now. There are some subs I know and remember, that have been here just as long as me, if not longer. There are some Dommes that have been here just as long, if not longer. I love the community and more importantly what the site stands for, the financial domination of males, in a female led environment. I've owned one male for about 5 years now. I lovingly gave him the nickname kitten, or kitten bitch. We met on a game! Not a kink site or chat, but instead in a virtual reality game where kink is also a growing community. So, being a geeky black bbw, controlling, and demanding woman - finding a man that wanted to 'bend the knee' for me... was absolutely addicting. I was younger, on a major power high, and no one had ever given me as trust as devotion as that one sub. He handed over bank information, credit cards, and everything I could possibly ever want. We were enjoying our 'fantasy' relationship.

I took, and took, and took.

Financially, he was demoted in his work. He was unable to sustain the level of financial domination and maintain his life with with his wife. He asked to just remain friends, and we did. Then, as all little boys in this fetish... he crawled back. Once all the accounts were back in my hands, I realized he left because he was poached by someone else. lol.

Life. Boys wander and in the beginning of a relationship, that inrigue and luster does wane. He was the greatest and most experience I've enjoyed on my journey into the fetish. He realized that what he had built with me was more than just a findom relationship, but a femdom relationship. He needed more than just paying some stranger, but a connection to a Woman to serve and worship.

Kitten has been mine, faithfully, since his slip up. I have access to all accounts. We've learned how to maintain the kink, and the excitement - even when that honeymoon phase is over. And trust me - the excitement will wear off. We started our 'real' power exchange, and it is possible over the internet. We explore self bondage, sissification, gags, ass play, edging, and many many more kinks. 

Communication is key. Some months are better, and some months arent. I take what I want, when I want - keeping in mind that the bills need to be paid. We discuss monthly, what he is able to contribute to my life. That in itself is a power exchange. He no longer watches PP and wonders if I've over spent, that trust is instilled. I have no problem asking if he can handle a certain amount that month. I am not sure if most Dommes think asking is weakness, but its a simple form of communication. My dominance is natural, not forced. So I'm confident and not unsure when it comes to asking about what is naturally mine.

I'm probably starting to babble now.. lol. Basically, I made a blog to show the importance of communicating, and knowing that trust is important in femdom. I am seeking a similar connection with a sub from this site. It'll take a while, to find a like minded sub. A boy that craves femdom as well as findom. I'm hoping a look into one of my deepest, personal, and most enjoyable relationships will have him approach.

Till then, I plan on messaging first to those lucky enough to catch my attention.

Thanks for reading,

Goddess CopperLotus