Fantasies, Desires & How FinDom Fits

For as long as I can remember I have had submissive fantasies and desires.  That’s a long time 

I steered clear of Findom for a while.  It seemed kind of scary and not my thing so I thought.  I’m still not entirely sure it is my thing even now yet here I am.  A member of findoms for 3 years and currently very happily Under Consideration to a fabulous FinDom Goddess, Miss Dakota.

For me, I find there is a commonality between Findom and the kind of fantasies and desires I have.  With this post I am going to try to explain that a bit.

I have varied fantasies yet running through them all is a common thread.  I love it when I am under the strict control with no possibility of escape (not that I’d want to!).

I’ll describe a few of my favorite fantasies and then try to tie that in to why a Findom fantasy works for me (even if it still scares me a bit).

My earliest fantasies involved my innocent self being abducted by a strong Woman (or perhaps more than one).  She inevitably had a deep awesome cleavage to distract me    By whatever means (maybe She surreptitiously drugged me or simply physically overpowered me), I found myself in Her clutches.  She would keep me tied up or otherwise unable to escape Her.

Latterly, this fantasy is modified where She enforces my obedience with hypnosis.  I love the feeling of a deep hypnotic trance with a seductive voice in my ear gently but firmly reprogramming my mind to become the pet She wants.  I want what Goddess wants me to want.  My only thought is making Goddess happy, She thinks the rest of my thoughts for me. 

Several years back I read a very lengthy & detailed story fueling many a fantasy though some of it was not really my idea of fun.  The ‘hero’ had a very bad accident and is in hospital.  Eventually he is discharged, but he still needs to have a home nurse to assist his recovery.  But the rather buxom (!) nurse is secretly drugging him so that he doesn’t quite recover properly and he begins to lose control of his toilet functions (this is where it’s not really my thing…lol).  So the nurse forces him to wear diapers (it just makes sense) and then when he gets excited when She changes him, She locks him into chastity.  From then on, he is lost and eventually becomes totally dependent on his nurse.  (As I recall there was a financial component to this story – She had designs on his multi million dollar trust fund).

I also do love that chastity aspect, I admit.  Goddess in control of my orgasms and even when I might touch my cock.  The key dangled around Her neck, nestling between Her enticing breasts makes me feel very weak and submissive to Her.  And really, as long as She has that key under Her control, it’s Her cock

I love to see my Goddess smiling, to hear Her say She is pleased.  All She has to do is whisper what a good boy I have been, and I am reduced to a pile of jelly.  “How else may I make You smile, Goddess?”  I crave that feeling like nothing else.  And how I crave Her approval.  Need it like I need air to breathe.

OK, I’m getting hot and bothered as I write this so I better get to the point

These are all fantasies that end up with me having rules imposed but they are a bit too much fantasy to be anywhere near a realistic scenario.

With FinDom that loss of control which I crave feels very real.  In our society, money equals power so there is no greater symbol of giving up control than surrendering money to a Goddess.  That might be in a limited way but when I have to ask permission to spend any money, that feeling of being under Her control magnifies.

The ultimate findom fantasy?  Goddess in complete control of Her pet’s financial transactions and decisions.  She has me permanently under Her power, helpless to resist Her.  Her collar resides around my neck and I follow Her rules.  Her authority over me is unquestioned. 

Her control is complete and absolute, just as it was in the fantasies I described earlier.