Serving Princess Hatty: A sub's account.

I asked one sub to summarise his experience with me so far. I think this is beautiful. Thank you puppy.

"The One

33 years old. A long, long standing interest in kink and submission. An active participant, in one form or another, in the lifestyle since my early twenties. Lots of experiences, some bad, some good. A lingering arrogance perhaps, to think to myself that I had truly lived this, lived this lifestyle and truly understood it, enjoyed it, experienced it.

Now, at 33 years of age, I can tell you that's not the truth. Well, not until the relatively recent past at least.  

Sure, I have served, online, real time, even visited a few professionals in my deep curiosity. But now I see, with open eyes and a clear head, what true submission looks like. What a true D/s relationship feels like. How it has alerted me to what I have been missing all these years, and how it has changed me as a person.

A quick dip into my past. Upon learning at an early age (inadvertently – good old night time TV, unattended youngster, and Eurotrash running a BDSM scene) that submission was my thing, I spent a long time battling my compulsions. “Why do I have to like this?”, “Why does it turn me on?”, “Why can’t I just be “normal” like everyone else?” or “That’s it, I’m just going to ignore it, it’ll go away eventually”.

Well, as it turns out, you just can’t fight your nature. Well, I can’t at least, I tried for many years, and failed each and every time. So, what to do? It turns out the World Wide Web has an answer for everything.

So I tried it. I tried Collarme (later Collarpsace), Fetlife, Twitter, ALT, and later, Hepays. I met many people, had many fleeting relationships, some bad, some good, some absolutely terrible. I learned, I learned a lot. Again, some good things, some bad things. I learned how naïve I was (very), I learned that people can sense weakness, and I learned that if you put your trust in the wrong people, you’ll quickly regret it.

I grew as a person, but perhaps not as I would have liked. I wasn’t overcoming the shame, the thought I was different to everyone else. However, I learned some other things. I was now quick to distrust all, I’d built some walls to protect myself, and, as far as I was concerned, nobody from this side of my life was getting to the inner circle.

Like many, I shied away and returned to the scene, semi-regularly. I was the yo-yo sub, trying to stay away, but always returning. You think I’d have learned from my earlier lesson about fighting your nature. (spoiler: I didn’t) The truth was, I had never found someone I trusted, someone I could identify with, someone who I could genuinely enjoy, and not just in a kink setting.

That all changed, and changed fast, when I met Her. Princess Hatty (thank you Hepays!!). 

At the time, I was on my way back to the scene, having decided to give it a rest for a while. I got on Hepays, and browsed, but did little else. I had no great interest in actively pursuing, just having a peek back in through the window.
 
I still remember Her first message to me. “Will I do?”. Will I do……three small words, but that’s where it all started, and I could tell straight away, She was different.
 
So, different. Let’s explore that. My previous initial experiences had included “Fuck you, pay me” or the rather more worrying “Send me a naked picture with face”.

Thankfully, not here. She made her requirements clear from the start, I pay, we play. Little did I know how much play we would enjoy in the coming months.

I quickly realize that this is what I have been waiting my whole life for. A true Dominant, it flows from Her, naturally, never forced. She teases, She flirts. We talk, we talk about everything, anything. She’s wicked, strict – once an order is given, it sticks, She will teach you your place. She’s inventive, creative, She’s at Her most dangerous when improvising, but I love every minute, every task, every interaction.

I tell Her my past, and Princess Hatty moves to assuage my fears. She teaches me something; not everyone is out to hurt you, and She does this not through words, but through actions. She is open with me, from the start. Actions can be measured, words cannot.  

She pushes me, past my previous boundaries, past what I thought my boundaries ever could be. She challenges me, She plays with me. She controls me, overtly and covertly. She knocks down my walls, She strips away my shame, my worries. I serve Princess Hatty, not because I have to, but because I want to, more than anything else, more than anyone else. Whatever task She gives me, the fear of letting Her down overrides the fear of all else, the fear that used to stop me in my tracks sometimes.

After each task She shows Her approval, I feel pride, no matter what I’ve just done. She make me feel ten feet tall, and when I go too far, She quickly reminds me who’s boss. She’s opened my eyes to how this world should be experienced, She is my owner, and these past few months have proven something to me, I can live with this, this lifestyle, every day for months on end and enjoy every second of it.

Princess Hatty, that name means so many things to me. She’s the one who reignited this whole lifestyle for me. She’s the one who puts me in my place, She’s the one who picks me up afterwards, She’s the one who knocked down my walls, She’s the one who makes me proud to serve.

She’s the One."