redefining who you are

Since 2010, ive been going through various moments of defining who i am. i always rotate my thoughts, what i do and what i dont do. or even do anymore. ive come to a conclusion that redefining who you are is a good thing. changes you up, and you discover what works. plus over time you see what fits best than before. or what worked before may not work now. i learned my very mean side as of late and its better than the past. Ive thought for years that once you have set yourself that you dont need to change it again. well its been 7 years since i started to be a findomme. i am working on wanting to become a prodomme.

what sparked that? well there is an event that we have here. i wanted to be a model for it. but she is only accepting prodommes. well how am i suppose to get myself out there if i cant even be at the event building clientele. i already have one client who comes to the foot parties and i enjoy him playing with my feet. its hard to get a clientele there as some of the boys only comes for one domme and that is it. plus when you have small feet, you figured that the boys would love it. but it seems they like the big feet. i have a few sessions but sometimes i dont make enough money to go to all of them. so i want to again build a clientele. have sessions in the hotel rooms as i dont wanna do any from my home. they stay in the hotel, and i come to see them. of course ill have my call check ins as i learned. back story, i got excited about having a session with a guy who was in town for a few weeks. we had the date set up. not the time of course as he had meetings. so the day before he didnt pay the deposit, but really wanted this session. so im like ok, he is going to be paying me x amount of money it better be worth my time. he never got back to me on the time or the hotel that i suggested in boston. so i lost out. but i never game up. i still want to do rt sessions. i will make it to where i want to be. 

how does this fit in with redefining yourself. well, for me, its knowing what i want out of that rt session. knowing what i want to present myself as, which is a prodomme. i want to add to my collection of clothing to have to wear for when i have sessions. i dont mind the online ones but i want a pure rt fun sessions that i can grin on the way home with the money in my hand. i want to know that he had a good time and want to have another session in the future. im designing my own business card and trying to come up with a clever title for myself. i dont want to say prodomme, or findomme. i want something creative that suits who i am. i no longer want to be thought of as a findomme. i want to be that prodomme and become good at it. i again redefining myself. 

overall, i know what i want out of this now. i know where i want to go. i have my tumblr, twitter, swatter, website, festsie, fetlife, skype, etc. i have more of what is needed. i am sure there are others that i should be having on my list. but i do have to limit myself for personal reasons. i have to keep saying to myself that i will be a prodomme and i will be getting clients. i will buld it up. i will  have my rates set to who i am and what is true. i define who i am and will rotate. i am Mistress Aeval the one and only.