A report from a sub that visited Me.

Journal Entry 

This is a real report written by a sub who got so lucky to visit me. It`s written some time ago, but it is still a good read plus it will give future r/t slaves a bit of an insight on me as a Domme.

It was original written in Dutch then translated by me in English. I give the right to read this story, I however do not give the right to copy/ change it, sell it, use it on your own site or profile or use it for any other reason than a good read.

Tuesday it was finally happening. I had my appointment with Miss. All the preparation where made.

The night before I had shaven everything Miss had instructed. In my backpack I had my gag and a set of cuffs. About the rest I need not worry, Miss would have enough herself. One part of me was very curious about it the other scared. Luckily I knew Miss already a little and knew I could trust her, if not I would have never dared to go on this journey.

A little nervous I stepped on the train, a little worried the other passengers would see the type of underwear I was wearing. Of course this was just my mind playing tricks, no one could see as it was firmly covered by my pants. In the train I started to read, but soon found myself being constantly distracted from my reading.

Constantly I was questioning myself if I could do this, if I really was submissive and if I could bare the pain that Miss would inflict on me. It was not that I went on this adventure totally unprepared. But my experiences are limited and I never experienced true submission.

In my head I repeated all the positions and their commands that Miss had sent me in a document to study. I was worried that I would forger the commands and how to perform the position, or mix them up. I was even more worried about the consequences.

After a step over on the bus I finally arrive at Miss her home. I can already see her sitting in her living and need not ring the doorbell as she already opened the door for me. She asks me to quickly enter and I am wondering if her Dominance already starts here.

However we agreed to share a tea first and Miss is true to her word. Even though we are in an everyday setting I immediately feel submissive to her. I have no idea why but it settles my nerves and I am happy with the feeling.

After a nice introduction, I hand Miss my things. She looks at it approving and asks me to go with her upstairs. There she shows me her massive collection of whips paddles and canes. It scares me a little to see but also intrigues me. I feel I no longer can stay respect less upright and kneel down for her. Entering the slaves wait position. By the small smile on her lips I believed Miss agreed with my decision. Not even stopping for a second, she continuous. She even tests one paddle out on my hand. This is to show me the difference between both sides. So far I am still eager to serve this Lady.

Next she orders me to go into the next room. I am to strip down to my underwear. I am to put my own cuffs around my ankles and put on the collar and wrist cuffs Miss has already laid out for me. When I am done, for some strange reason I do not feel naked. As I wait for her I can hear her set things out in the next room. I can hardly wait to see what will happen next. Then she calls for me and I have to crawl at her heel back to the first room.

First she goes over the positions I had to learn, even with my nerves racing I feel I don`t do too bad. It’s not perfect but Miss seems to be in a forgiving mood. One command I totally screwed up. It was a command to Honor and kiss her shoe, I however ended up licking it. Luckily after a stern look and a warning Miss did forgive my mistake and even made me carry on cleaning both shoes for her.

She than gives me the command to go lay over her lap. I can feel her hands on my ass and soon she is building up a steady pays of slapping my ass cheeks. Even for a warm-up it’s already pretty hard and I start to worry if I can live up to Miss her expectations. Especially as I had already confessed I would like to try out her leather cane. A foolish thing to say I worry now.

After the short warm-up she goes through the positions with me again. Than it is time for the real endurance. I don`t see a beating as punishment, but something I wish to do for my Mistress. Something I love to endure, because it makes her happy.

I have to say that at first I am doing well and even though it hurts still enjoy it myself. Miss tries out a new whip on me, a nasty whip with many hard thin straps. She is not using the whip very hard, but sometimes hit a sensitive part. Than its back over her lap, first she starts again with her hand than to go on with different paddles. In between the spanking I can feel her warm hand on my ass, checking the state of my skin. Then she begins starting to build up momentum and I can start feeling myself float away in ecstasy. With only a sigh at every hit I take her every hit, until she speeds up even more and it almost becomes to much.

We have a little break and a talk. Some time for me to build back up my strength. I have already almost forgotten the pain and am happy with Miss her aftercare of me. My ass she tells me is already a nice shade of red with a nice set of crisscross lines. Still I feel I can prove to her that I can take more as I know it brings her pleasure. Besides, I still had not felt the leather cane.

She makes me bent over a wooden bench covered with some padding. I already start to regret my optimism that I told her I could take some more. I however decide to be as submissive as I can and be a good slave and to just take it.

At first she starts simple, but soon switches to a beautiful flexible cane of light material. This already is hard on me and I start to breathe faster. At the same time I can already feel myself slip away again into subspace. It feels lovely. Now and then I whisper her name, a reminder for whom I am doing this. She switches over to a longer and harder cane, making sure my whole ass is covered in the tell tale marks of the cane. I can already feel where this will lead, the leather cane. It’s a beautiful long black cane. A gem to look at but it is also something that fills me with fright.

From the corner of my eye I can see her pick it up. I prepare myself and soon 3 hits fall down. I crumble from the pain as irradiates from my body. Miss compliments my on how well I am taking it and says she is happy she finally has found someone to use it on. The 3 hits were already really painful but I want to go on. I want to prove that I can take this cane. I tell her I would love some more of it but feel the need to be bound to take it.

Miss orders me to my knees, to bend over face on the floor wrists stretched back next to my ankles. She ties them all together making me unable to escape. With my head on the floor I await my fate.

It takes not long for the cane to again fall on my ass. I count the strokes and barely make it to 10 from the excruciating pain. Then I beg her to stop. Miss takes only partly mercy on me and gives me 5 more cane strokes with the lighter on. Part of me is glad she did this, as it shows who is in command.

She comes and sits next to me. My breathing is irregular and comes out in shocks. Grateful I crawl against her boot. As Miss strokes my hair I cry. I don`t know if it was because of the pain or the release of gratitude. It feels however very special.

Slowly I find my way back out of subspace. I completely lost track of time but slowly it starts to dawn on me that I still have to go home. Miss takes a few pictures of my beaten ass to show me just how red and covered in lashes it is. It looks impressive and I am actually proud of it.

I get dressed, say my goodbyes and go home. The long trip is not very comfortable, but as long as I sit still it’s bearable. Only when I need to get up it takes effort not to show my fellow passengers the pain I am in.

At home I see Miss emailed me the pictures. Looking in the pictures I see that the trip home did nothing to improve the state of my ass. A big blue welt has formed. However I am still very great full for serving Miss and experiencing lovely toys.