The mind of a sadist

As I've mentioned before on various social media accounts, there is no greater rush then bringing a man to his knees via ball busting. I'd consider ballbusting my gateway drug, to a high of inflicting pain. I'll never forget my first unintentional swift kick, I was hooked to say the least. From there began and onslaught of starting fights in an attempt to mock that first high. I soon realized that , slapping and eventually spanking and paddling would give me the same gratification. The time between each incident became longer and longer as I was led to believe there was something wrong with me.I needed to learn to control my urges, so I did exactly that. Since then I've had the amazing experience of owning my own pain slut. I'd say we are evenly matched, both equally as excited while I do my thing. It feels good to finally make sense of something that has been an inexplicable part of me for so long, almost as good as having my paddle explore his ass.