Orgasm denial - 11 Months

It has been 11 months since Mistress Pauley let me release! I am "getting used to it" if that expression makes any sense. That is, I am accepting that I will never get used to it but I have to continue to please Mistress Pauley. In another month, of course, it will be one full year. At that point, I plan to beg Mistress Pauley for more time without release. I believe it increases my submission to Mistress' will and makes me more obedient. For instance, I have a "budget" of money to spend each year, but I have been thinking I definitely have to find more money to please her next year. To be clear, we celebrate different "years." There are years of service, years of continuous service and years without release. Budget year is the annual year, 2017 now and 2018 next. For 2018, I must find more money for her. I would not be thinking this way if she let me release more often. But than, I want to both please her and move closer to wanting ONLY to please her.

Then you, Mistress Pauley, for not letting me release. Thank you for not even bringing it up. Thank you for letting me discuss Orgasm Denial with you but not letting me ask for release. Thank you for having your way with me. Thank you for continuing my enslavement.

Thank you, Mistress Pauley.