10 Months of Orgasm Denial!

As of July 15, it has been 10 months since Mistress Pauley let me release. At first, it was short periods of time and I was allowed release. Then, a longer period where I looked forward to release but it never arrived. Third, I realized the Orgasm Denial was indefinite. Now I wonder if the next stage may be Permanent Orgasm Denial? That is, as long as I serve Mistress Pauley, I can look forward to going without release. Of course, Mistress may allow release sometime, but the point is I would consider Orgasm Denial permanent and stop wondering when it might be allowed.

I am not allowed to ask for release. I am allowed to discuss it as long as I do not request release. Mistress Pauley never brings it up; it is like she expects me to go without and focus on her pleasure, not my own. From my point of view, Orgasm Denial is a positive motivator. I am motivated to please Mistress Pauley but only for the satisfaction of pleasing her. I am not motivated by the hope of release as Mistress does not promise that.

Thank you, Mistress Pauley, for not letting me release. As my Orgasm Denial continues, please let it show me how to properly worship, obey and serve. Please let it move me towards being a better slave. Please let me know as you are pleased with my service. Please manifest your will over me as you continue to make me go without.

Thank you, Mistress Pauley.

Your worshiper,

slave aka sorrysub