Reflections from a Slave after 100 days Serving Me

NOTE: This is a different slave than the last blog entry regarding obedience.

xox
Harley

100 days ago Mistress Harley claimed ownership of me. It was a fantasy, a wish come true though I had too many doubts and fears to ever express this as anything more than fantasy. The need to serve the need to be under Mistress Harley’s control had occupied my thoughts and actions since that first time I encountered Mistress Harley and then 100 days ago my every hope was fulfilled. A few words to reflect on the last 100 days is in order.


It took at least a week for my hands to stop shaking after Mistress Harley claimed me. The effects Mistress Harley had on my life were immediate and profound. The control my life simply lacked and needed so badly started that very day. Gone the wasteful habits that occupied so much of my time each day. Time searching for that new porn excitement and jerking my tiny penis was immediately changed to devotional time to Mistress Harley with daily reflections and reciting her Mantras. Then came a requirement to provide Mistress my budget with that information in hand came the next level of control requirement to get back to the gym and get my health habits under control. Each time a new control put in place became comfortable Mistress Harley could sense it and moved to the next step. I must stop here a few lines and recall some of the more fascinating discoveries of levels of my psyche that Mistress Harley tapped into, things I had forgotten. The daily writing assignments at first I attempted to write just what I thought Mistress Harley wanted to hear from me and it was a chore. After a couple of weeks my real thoughts and reflections started to appear and I suddenly rediscovered that I actually enjoy writing. Part of the enjoyment I found was in revealing myself to Mistress Harley real thoughts and real feelings were much easier to write about. This at the same time was running counter some doubts I had in that first 30 days worrying about giving any slight bit of real identity information to Mistress Harley while the whole time opening up and revealing much more of who real me is. Mistress Harley also helped me rediscover how much I could enjoy exercise with motivation to improve myself to better serve I fell in love with exercise and working out all over again. I kinda wondered as my journey started if just like so many new kinks I had lightly explored how quick I would bore and get tired of this adventure. It turned out everyday being owned by Mistress Harley became more exciting and drew me deeper in. Now I enjoy each day what Mistress Harley called the sexual gamification of my life. Everyday life keeps me thinking of Mistress Harley a song here a social media post there that to anyone else seem just vanilla but to me it is my sex life. Mistress Harley has introduced me to a few fetishes that I thought I knew something about the first on my mind at the moment is chastity. I thought I knew what being locked in a chastity device would be like after all I tried it few weeks here and there before but had not a clue what it would be like after 4 weeks in the device and only being released once on Mistress Harley’s whim I am starting to discover with delight the level of control locking my favorite toy up has given Mistress Harley. Another part of Mistress Harley’s ownership that has come to fascinate is how much despite my expressed concerns and fears I keep finding myself willingly surrendering bits a privacy to her and how very exciting it feels when Mistress Harley hints at knowing any new bit of information. The more control Mistress Harley exercises the more I become addicted and obsessed with the idea what will come next.


100 days ago I could never have imagined all that has happened or how much it would changed my life and how much more I would come to adore Mistress Harley. I find myself fascinated at what might come in the next 100 days what will be the next fantasy Mistress Harley will discover and exploit to control me. Given the amazing ways my life has been improved in the last 100 days I cannot wait to look back after 200 days 300 days and see how different my life is for the better.