Female led relationships... how did you get there?

I'm not going to delve into WHY I'm writing this blog at 4am, but I do hope that you'll a) read it, and b) offer some feedback. With that out of the way, I'm curious about female led relationships. Not strictly D/s, but one that includes elements from a good D/s relationship. I suppose I'm hoping to hear about personal experiences traveling down this particular path, regardless of how you ended up here. Has a sub ever become your boyfriend? Have you had a boyfriend who has become your sub? How did that transition occur, and how difficult was it to make that change? Or maybe it wasn't difficult at all, but why?

I ask a lot of questions. I've never been attracted to submissive men (I *am* attracted to My own power that I feel while dominating said submissive men, though), but I'm curious about having a sub boyfriend. Someone ready and willing to please Me anytime; eager to rub My feet; aroused by pampering and spoiling Me; someone who is happy for Me to go fuck someone else. Someone who is there when I want him, gone when I don't. I suppose I'm idealizing it too much, but I feel like that's the only kind of relationship that could ever make Me happy. I'm far too particular and picky and introverted to have a "normal" relationship, nor do I REALLY want a boyfriend. But in the future, is that something that could work for Me? I couldn't find a male attractive if he wanted to drink cum or abuse himself for Me, but the aforementioned forms of submission (pampering, spoiling, being around on MY schedule) sound pretty fucking nice.

I'm tired. I'm rambling. I promise that there's more to this, but I'm not really at the stage where I want to explain it. Anyway, insight would be nice.